The 30 & Over

He that is not jealous is not in love.
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Catholic Quote


Is this our 2nd chance to love, dear? The day we met, our eyes are conflicting with each other, two hearts combined like a beautiful dream. At times you called out my name, everyone looked. Our laughter, our jokes, when you teased me, I smiled. That light of joy that only you and I alone know. Unable to hold in each others arms, but we know our hearts do. 

Memory meeting him yesterday is too sweet to forget. When he called my name out loud like I am the only one that caught his eyes, others I sensed start to looked and puzzled. When Sr. Felicity began to mention "macam dia interested saja sama kau" and I was like Is she referring that to me? I tried to hold my emotion not to tremble neither nervous nor excited. When he asked me to sit opposite to him, (actually beside him) I was not keen at first, but in the end was convinced as he nicely urging me to sit facing him. Our eyes met, though it is only an official meeting but our hearts tell another story of longing and wanting. 
I do not want neither to declare nor to rectify that love is there between us. Neither to justify my feelings for him. I do not want to simply assume that it is LOVE. Yes, I am afraid that my heart is beginning to fall for him. I do not wish to hope for everything in this world. I know one true love only comes from God. And He gives me freedom to choose. 

Is this our 2nd chance to love, dear? The day we met, our eyes are conflicting with each other, two hearts combined like a beautiful dream. At times you called out my name, everyone looked. Our laughter, our jokes, when you teased me, I smiled. That light of joy that only you and I alone know. Unable to hold in each others arms, but we know our hearts do. 

Memory meeting him yesterday is too sweet to forget. When he called my name out loud like I am the only one that caught his eyes, others I sensed start to looked and puzzled. When Sr. Felicity began to mention "macam dia interested saja sama kau" and I was like Is she referring that to me? I tried to hold my emotion not to tremble neither nervous nor excited. When he asked me to sit opposite to him, (actually beside him) I was not keen at first, but in the end was convinced as he nicely urging me to sit facing him. Our eyes met, though it is only an official meeting but our hearts tell another story of longing and wanting. 

I do not want neither to declare nor to rectify that love is there between us. Neither to justify my feelings for him. I do not want to simply assume that it is LOVE. Yes, I am afraid that my heart is beginning to fall for him. I do not wish to hope for everything in this world. I know one true love only comes from God. And He gives me freedom to choose. 

The Reality of My Admiration

Ever since I was a child, I never find such admiration on toys, or tv superheroes, or any cartoon characters. Ok here’s my confession. My first crush was Bill Pullman. Yah, like seriously.

As years passed I gradually (since then) always adore middle aged men since I love their kind of ‘love stories’ movies. Whether it’s a romantic comedy or drama or tragedy. It affects my whole life experience, influences my preference in men. Not that I am prejudice against younger (assuming like my age) men. Nothing in particular.

Well basically we are only human who wants to feel love and be loved, right? Agreeable that love can be blind and infectious, even addictive. But if we keep our faith along the journey, eventually everything will fall to their right places. And I believe whatever that I am going through right now, it is never been a coincidence, nor just a passing by story. Whatever that’s meant to be will always find its way.

The beauty of prayer if we are faithful to His word, He teaches us love, He teaches us compassion, he teaches us to be with him we have to go through all trials and tribulation. Amen.

IG August Photo Challenge.
From far left (left to right)
Day 1: Lunch - Nasi Goreng Kampung
Day 2 : Playlist - Shakira ‘Empire’
Day 3 : Where I sleep
Day 4 : things you regret - I don’t have driving license.
Day 5 : Favorite movie - 1995 While You Were Sleeping 
Day 6 : Old picture
Day 7 : Through the window 
Day 8 : Favorite shoes
Day 9 : OOTD

IG August Photo Challenge.
From far left (left to right)
Day 1: Lunch - Nasi Goreng Kampung
Day 2 : Playlist - Shakira ‘Empire’
Day 3 : Where I sleep
Day 4 : things you regret - I don’t have driving license.
Day 5 : Favorite movie - 1995 While You Were Sleeping
Day 6 : Old picture
Day 7 : Through the window
Day 8 : Favorite shoes
Day 9 : OOTD